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Saturday, 19 May 2012

So much can happen in just two little months!

Well after my mood killing post in March it was strange that we should find ourselves pregnant the very month that I had decided to give up.
My husband was sticking to his gluten free diet and I was being a good little girl and taking my clomid despite it turning me into a raving psycho she devil from hell.  As with most women that are pregnant after a loss I was convinced that we would end up miscarrying again and sadly I was right.  I don't really feel like going into all the details right now as it is just far too depressing but the basics are that we lost the baby at the same point as the first (between 5 and 6 weeks) and yet again my body hasn't realised what has happened so I am just waiting to miscarry.  I would have been 9 weeks today and unfortunately my body is still producing enough of the pregnancy hormone for me to be feeling all of the pregnancy symptoms.  It is getting quite frustrating that at least 3 weeks after our baby stopped growing I am still waiting for my body to catch up.  It is difficult to claw back normality when you know that your body is still 'pregnant'.
Because of all the recent sadness and the fact that I am off of work until something happens I have turned to crafting in an effort to distract myself from the horrors and help to maintain some small sense of self worth and 'happiness'.  I personally get a huge sense of satisfaction when someone compliments me on something that I have hand made.
My latest craze is hair accessories and after ordering some Alice bands from ebay I currently have 5 different projects on the go!
One is complete but after being ecstatic with the main creation - a large chocolate covered strawberry, I am very disappointed with the placement on the band.  Stupidly I placed the strawberry too high up on the band so it looks like it is almost grazing the centre point.  I personally prefer a sideways slant to hair accessories.  I may go back to it today and try to remove it from the band to reposition, the only problem is not only was it glued on with an epoxy resin but the rear was also re-covered in fimo for added security.  I have a feeling this repositioning may all end in tears but I refuse to photograph and share until I am happy with the end result!
I also have a hand painted sugar skull on the go along with a zombie hello kitty!  I am not happy with the scale of the sugar skull - I think it is too large but looking at other 'alternative' hair accessories on the internet maybe the scale isn't too off.  I want to finish it off with some gorgeous flower and glass beads to give it a more 'authentic' feel.
I have some fabric roses that have been made from ribbon and off-cuts that I am hoping to add some cute sparkles to and then add to a band for a sweet summery take on my hair accessories - polar opposite to the sugar skull and zombie kitty!  I plan to make some sweet leopard print and red heart buttons from polymer clay and have some gorgeous leopard print ribbon on order so I can make contrasting black and leopard ribbon roses and add the contrasting buttons - I think this may become my favourite!
Have googled polymer clay flower tutorials and if there is time I may even whip a few of those out!  Depending on how I get on with the Alice Bands I may branch out into hair clips and miniature versions.  I am a little obsessed with hair accessories and am enjoying designing my own!

To actually share something of my crafting with you I spent hours creating these gorgeous mini mouse nails!

Nothing like a bit of nail art to make me feel better!

Mission for today is to complete some of my half finished designs (have a tendency to wonder off onto something else before completing) and then hopefully can upload some photo's!

1 comment:

  1. I don't know how I stumbled across your blog but your crafting skills are amazing! This post is incredibly sad, I can't imagine the anxiety, disappointment and sadness you must of experienced. It's amazing how cathartic crafting can be, I'm not a fan of the term craft, it conjures up images of bored housewives buying scrapbooking kits on QVC. I think true original crafting is a skill that's really undervalued. Thanks for sharing!